fuckingcheepy

there is no middle ground here  no home tree safe zone  olly olly oxenfree. this graying fog is just  blinding hate and blackened love mingled too closely.  'all's fair in love and war' is redundant enough to make me cringe.  there is no clean line for us, no Do Not Cross tape  crisscrossing the boundaries to our fucked-up minds. Here, every smile could be  a secret knife, sliding between sleeping ribs to a heart frayed with loving you.  every word is the molten iron, forged into rough honest words of caring  or broken splinters into lungs wheezing out a last apology. at least living on the edge  has one helluva g

Pavlov would be proud of the way you salivate for love. ears perked forward and eager jaws foaming at the very thought of a bell whose clapper rusted long ago. think outside the box because the cat doesn't want you here and you're enjoying shock therapy a little too much. pick up your head, exhale the dust of old memories and move on.

don't tell mother that her little girl's breasts are slathered over the internet, like so much cheap butter. shy gins and upward sweeping lashes don't hide the fact that she has become what you never wanted. don't tell daddy that his skin is dark like exotic spices spilled on the kitchen counter. she can't name them all, she just knows he tastes like the coldest water on the driest day. don't tell sister how much you wish to be her and don't tell brother that you are green with envy at what he has. don't tell auntie that you kissed a girl and don't tell uncle you loved it.

I am the ache woven between your ribs some where deep that your fingertips only brush and your nails can't quite reach because i know you're just itching to dig me out I am the fleeting thought of running that split-second with a million moments hidden inside before you jump or don't jump, because, let's face it, we're both cowards I am that soothing cancer ever present and ever painful still here after enough radiation to make Hiroshima look like just another warm day you ask me why? and i know the reason; healthiness is too droll for you